its not fair how fast the universe brought us together and ripped us apart just as quick.

the first year without you in my life was the absolute hardest and there wasn’t a day i didn’t think about you, cry from missing you so bad, and wish you were here ): i thought i could over come it, you know.. as time went on….. its becoming unbearable now. i don’t know what it is. but i miss you so much, i find myself trying to fill the void in that you left when you got on that plane. but nothing. no one. has ever compared to you. not in any way shape or form. and that what makes you so special. you are so irreplaceable. i won’t ever forget you and i will always love you. until the end of time and further more. i feel like my own blood, my own sister was taken away from me so fast i didn’t even know what was going on. I’m happy that you are happy, so proud of you and your life. i just wish i was there to witness all these beautiful events that are unfolding for you. i wish i was a part of it all. tangible love. i wish it was within arms reach again. i hate life. i hate the way things change and the way people grow and move forward not having a choice to go back to their TRUE homeland. 

if there is a God, (which i don’t doubt) all i want is my best friend back, please. can i PLEASE have my other half back? i feel like 3/4 of my heart was ripped out and I’ve been bleeding dry since. i want everything back to how it was in 7th grade. fuck -_-

you could marry a man and make him your husband, like, if you could marry your best friend and make her your other half, thats what she would be, my official other half.

i miss you.